this was gonna b a comment, but i realised it was too long

haha, damn cool. actually, tats y i sometimes wish i play dota, yay!! so i know wat the hell you guys are talking abt all the time.

but anyway, juz wanted to say, i think its kinda weird for yiren to change tho, haha, i trust tat he means no malice whenever he says anything la, its juz him. I mean, it would be weird if he suddenly stopped trying to bring up the hit the meepok man game almost everytime i see him. Come to think of it, i dun think he has actually ever touched me, and tat's good, although he threatens physical violence all the time. haha.

when u think abt it, i think most pple in 4o tend to rib each other a lot more, and generally take on a more insulting tone when speaking to one another, or mayb juz when speaking to me? but i think most of the times, we know tat its juz for fun, cuz we are so comfortable wif each other, we arent on guard when we are speaking to one another, and well, tho i get irritated sometimes by the mindless insults, its a good sign as well. After leaving singapore, i really do think I Love 4o seriously.

haha, feel kind of disconnected from most of u guys now tho, i wouldnt say i hung out wif u guys all the time last time, and there are many who i seldom talked to, admittedly. but somehow, i knew you guys were always there, and there would always be things to talk about. now tho, its really hard to even try n find you guys online. haha, basically the only ones i can still see online are alvin n tpk, cuz somehow, they keep really really weird hours online. even when i see you guys online, its hard for me to think of something to talk to u guys anymore. or to keep the converation going. imagine i start a conversation wif smk, (no intent here, juz a convenient example), i say ou xiang, den he say champion, den i ask him hows life n stuff, den we sort of enter a dead end, cuz i juz not in touch wif u guys anymore. Its not juz a single perosn. Somehow, now, when i see you guys online, i hesitate ove whether to msg u guys at all, cuz i feel like i m intruding on ur lives, rather than being a part of it. How? I dunno either, you guys tell me. is tat how friendship slowly regresses into acquaintances? I hope not, cuz I do miss you guys here. you guys prob think i m crapping, but i do think of u guys as my best friends ever. Uni life is seriously different from sec sch, and well, you guys should know me enough to know tat i dun make friends easily, let alone wif these pple who are so different.

ya, and before u guys post comments, i do realise the above sounds kind of ah gua, but so be it man, i can live wif it. after all, pple like csq haf been saying tat abt me for the past 9 yrs, i think i can live wif it this time as well. juz feeling sad tat u guys are getting pissed off wif each other over something so trivial in my eyes, but den again, tats prob cuz i dun play dota, so i dun understand how it can be like in the game, haha.