Misunderstood

Can't get to sleep... Been feeling rather bothered lately. Realised that my relationship with people from 4O has been getting increasingly strained. Contemplated about letting the matter blow over, but it doesn't seem to be improving...

People have been wondering what I have been doing, boycotting DOTA and basketball sessions. With most coming to the conclusion that I have been mugging away... NOT playing DOTA does not equates to mugging and it just so happens that I wasn't free for the last two basketball sessions... For those who do not believe, feel free to just close the browser window...

Contrary to what most of u believe, I do not yet have a gf. Currently, i am quite close to someone (don't ask who or how we met, don't think u all know her anyway), but our relationship is so far more of a brother-sister relationship, helping her out with her school work, family problems, accompanying her to part-time job interviews, going out occasionally as friends etc.... Constantly sending her sms also, as always witnessed by edsoon on the way home...

Why am i putting in so much effort for someone who's not really related to me... I also don't know... Whether the current relationship will develop into something more, I also don't know.. Unsure of my feelings, whether its out of brotherly concern or love... Maybe platonic relationship does exist after all.... Will most probably leave it at status quo for time being.... So in the meantime, please stop the rife speculations....

To end off, I would like to apologise to those DOTA players who i have sort of ignored over the past two months... Actually I stopped playing DOTA partly because quite sian of it and partly because i'm helping her online at times too... Furthermore, i haven't been playing for quite a while, will lead to teams being imbalanced if i play. (Like CSQ claiming that Edchong is causing the teams to be imbalanced - No offence please...) Will still be going for 4O basketball/soccer sessions, outings etc....

Hopefully this post will clear up some misunderstanding... Don't wish to see our 8 years of friendship (as constantly reminded by CSQ) come to an end. My heart is still with 4O and it will still remain one of my top priorities... For those who still insist that this is just a cover up for mugging then its up to u to believe in whatever u choose to...